What should a man do when he’s trying to be someone better, cause I am dying to know…

See I always thought being a man meant getting money, so when that was the case I was dying for more…

But now I see something different. Vividly…

Now I am seeing the same thing I was dying for become my enemy, Including friends…

I sacrificed a lot to walk on the wild side, Including family…

I became my own worst enemy but I always been able to accept what I dish out would come right back to me in return…

So what should a man do when my grandmother telling ,”boy you can stay here as long as you need to” when I know I’m liable to turn back to them streets because after soo long, the pain of the struggle becomes too unbearable for me to keep watching…

I was raised to believe God will take care of everything but I can’t hear him when my nigga keep repeating,” Fam, we almost outta options…”

So please tell me
What’s the square root of falling back to square one before I tore my life trying to figure out the answer
Because as of right now
I still have one eye on the streets and I am trying to keep the other on the pastor
But who am I fooling with, non-sense I keep feeding myself other than me?
Until my baby brother pick up a red bandanna and start locking B’s. What should a man Do?

-Foxx, Demarcus Heard